mr pain
9th January 2010, 12:03 AM
im depressed. was just diagnosed with gout today.
of course now i have all the newbie questions, please bear with me while i learn what i am really up against.
first, i feel ashamed of my condition because it seems the "word on the street" is that you get it because you drink too much. most of my family and friends do indeed know me a someone who loves beer. i am 40 and drink far less than i used to and really thought i was on the right track to a better lifestyle. guess not. i am an avid beer fan and even brew my own as a hobby. it seems this condition may take all that from me. is it possible to continue to drink beer and keep this ailment at bay ? is it possible others may understand gout in a way that wont label me as an alcoholic ? i sure dont want my employer to know.
second, i am still in denial. i want to believe my attack was brought on by something other than excessive alcohol consumption. my symptoms first started after after taking several generic vicodin a friend gave me for "fun". as soon as they wore off my toe began to sing to me. i also have been known to go DAYS without drinking much water. i was also recently prescribed a low dose diuretic with my HBP medicine. i stay away from most veggies and love a beef tenderloin for dinner (i also cook all my families meals). in the past i am positive i passed kidney stones but that was several years ago and not diagnosed. at the time my favorite beverages were iced tea (the stronger the better), lemonade, coffee, and beer.
third, i guess i am looking for support or stories about folks who have managed to beat this and still live the life they want to. or perhaps stories about people who had one attack and never had trouble again. am i setting my goals too high ? will i end up even more depressed and in worse shape if i continue this course ?
right now i have not been able to put weight on my left foot in days. i have never needed to rely on anyone for help doing anything. now i cant even cook meals for my kids and my wife is doing double duty. i fear this situation could hurt the relationship. my situation is compounded by the fact that i have osteoarthritis in my right large toe and the only cure is to have the bone fused. so essentially my one good foot is gone.
am i really cursed to suffer from this wretched pain for the rest of my life ? i am no sissy but this is worse than most pain i have ever felt.
sorry for the long post. what a great 40th birthday present !:mad:
of course now i have all the newbie questions, please bear with me while i learn what i am really up against.
first, i feel ashamed of my condition because it seems the "word on the street" is that you get it because you drink too much. most of my family and friends do indeed know me a someone who loves beer. i am 40 and drink far less than i used to and really thought i was on the right track to a better lifestyle. guess not. i am an avid beer fan and even brew my own as a hobby. it seems this condition may take all that from me. is it possible to continue to drink beer and keep this ailment at bay ? is it possible others may understand gout in a way that wont label me as an alcoholic ? i sure dont want my employer to know.
second, i am still in denial. i want to believe my attack was brought on by something other than excessive alcohol consumption. my symptoms first started after after taking several generic vicodin a friend gave me for "fun". as soon as they wore off my toe began to sing to me. i also have been known to go DAYS without drinking much water. i was also recently prescribed a low dose diuretic with my HBP medicine. i stay away from most veggies and love a beef tenderloin for dinner (i also cook all my families meals). in the past i am positive i passed kidney stones but that was several years ago and not diagnosed. at the time my favorite beverages were iced tea (the stronger the better), lemonade, coffee, and beer.
third, i guess i am looking for support or stories about folks who have managed to beat this and still live the life they want to. or perhaps stories about people who had one attack and never had trouble again. am i setting my goals too high ? will i end up even more depressed and in worse shape if i continue this course ?
right now i have not been able to put weight on my left foot in days. i have never needed to rely on anyone for help doing anything. now i cant even cook meals for my kids and my wife is doing double duty. i fear this situation could hurt the relationship. my situation is compounded by the fact that i have osteoarthritis in my right large toe and the only cure is to have the bone fused. so essentially my one good foot is gone.
am i really cursed to suffer from this wretched pain for the rest of my life ? i am no sissy but this is worse than most pain i have ever felt.
sorry for the long post. what a great 40th birthday present !:mad: